Spring Days

This last month has been kind to us. Lots of wonderful things have happened including welcoming my sister home from Niagara! We were all so happy to have her home again, especially the girls. I turned 29 which I haven’t decided if I am happy about. It isn’t the 29 that is bothering me. I think it is the looming 30 that unsettles me. In the end I had a great extended birthday/mothers day weekend. Next week Oliver will be five months old! I cannot say where the time has gone but our family is in a really good place right now. The kids are growing so fast and so beautifully and I am just thankful, thankful, thankful each day that I get to be here to witness it. Here is a bit of our days lately between home and school mornings and a few from a lobster feast at my mom’s on Mother’s Day.

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I can hear all three kids chatting happily away in their rooms. Time to start the day!

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Desperate

I am enjoying a rare quiet moment in our household. All three of my children are asleep in their beds and it is 1pm. I know it is a blessing, and oh wow, am I grateful! This Easter I decided to buy myself a new book I have been wanting to read since I first heard it was coming out. Written by Sally Clarkson and Sarah Mae, Desperate is like a big, deep breath of fresh air for a mama’s heart. I was so happy when Easter finally came and I could crack open my new book.

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I really feel like this book can help you whether you have one child or ten.

We, as moms, are all doing our very best to love our kids and give them the best start we can at life. My greatest desire is that my kids would someday grow to have a relationship with Christ. My hope is that they would know his undying love for them, his mercy and the amazing plans He has in store for them.

As their mother, I am the first Bible they are ever going to read. If Ben and I are loving, patient, kind and merciful with them then they will likely grow up believing that God is all of those things as well. If I am always cranky, nagging and grumbling through our days than how are they supposed to know that the God we serve is good and worthy of the many sacrifices we must make in motherhood.

I cannot give what I don’t have and if I don’t make time for myself, for my marriage and for my relationship with Christ then my tank is always running on empty.

That is why I am desperate. I am desperate for more of Jesus and His truth in my life. I am desperate for babysitters so I can enjoy the company of the amazing man who chose me and moved clear across the world to be with me and raise a family. I am desperate for mama’s night every month when it rolls around, to hear hilarious and wild stories of what is happening under other mama’s roofs and the antics their kids get up to. I am desperate for a latte and a good book or magazine in the quiet of Chapters all by myself every now and again.

I was supposed to go out the other night by myself to get a little head break and I just didn’t want to..which is not like me. I said to Ben, “Why don’t I want to go out tonight?” and he said, “Because at the end of the day it feels like you are just one more person YOU have to take care of. You are taking care of everyone else and you’re exhausted.” BINGO. It’s true. When I put myself last, I have no energy left to take care of anyone. When I make time for a bit of prayer, a shower, a coffee…everything looks different. Less stressful. More enjoyable. More peaceful. And don’t my husband and kids deserve that woman?

God is not a tyrant. He doesn’t want you burning yourself out and being a martyr, taking care of everyone else but yourself. God loves you! and me! Ridiculous, terrible at housekeeping, ungrateful, taking my crazy day out on my husband, bad cook, ME! and YOU! (insert all of your stuff here) YOU! He made us and He wants us to take care of ourselves because seriously? When we don’t take care of our mama selves, we are truly taking care of no one.

All of this to say…I am really enjoying my new book and I think you should read it too! oh, and I’m knitting Oliver some little mittens for next winter. I’m no longer behind on this year’s knitting. I’m on top of next years!

 

My First Milo

Imagine my total joy at the realization I can knit with wool in the August heat!? With Lucy’s birthday coming up in September and knowing that once this baby comes along I won’t have much time for knitting in the early days, I decided it was high time to start picking up my needles again. This is my first Milo Vest and it was such an easy knit! I have finished it now (pictures to come after Lucy’s birthday) and have knit another one for my little niece Rosie in the same color.  Everything must be purple these days for my girls and with purple being my favorite color, I don’t mind in the least.

While Ben and I were away last weekend on our first night away from the kids in nearly 4 years (!!!), we had the chance to spend some time in our local Catholic bookstore and chose a few new books for the kids. They are really loving the book about Mary, which is no surprise to me since they always seem to gravitate towards her.

In other news, we had our 20 week ultrasound yesterday and are now waiting to find out the sex of our sweet baby. This will be the first time we find out before the birth and I am really excited about it! I have been thinking maybe boy up until now but after our ultrasound and what we saw (or didn’t see) I am thinking it may be a girl. We will find out soon enough and then I will be knitting my little hands off until this one comes around Christmas. Sweet thoughts when I think of being cozied up at home this winter with our new babe.

Join Ginny and the rest here for the Yarn Along..

Lent is Here

We began our Ash Wednesday with the sweet gift of being able to attend mass together. Ben starting work later in the morning does have its perks!

After lunch we all had a rest and then got up and began discussing (as much as you can discuss anything with toddlers) what we would be doing as a family for Lent. I offered a few suggestions of things we could do and Lucy was very pleased with the ideas. We got ourselves an empty bin and made up a sign that read, “Food for the poor people”..at least that is what Lucy told me her sign said. Her fascination with the poor began on the feast of St. Brigid when we read a story about her life and the ways she helped care for the poor in her community, often by way of her parents pantry. We are keeping things simple and trying to lead by example rather than talking their little ears off.

I placed their little table against a wall in our living room and covered it with a purple play silk and gathered up a little basket of Lent/Easter related books and also a few small crosses and rosaries. They visit this little table often throughout the day and it makes me smile to see them take such interest in the stories about Christ’s life. Their favorite book right now is a french Children’s Bible that my grandmother gave to Lucy when she was just a baby. They are loving hearing the old testament stories and ask me about a million questions about them. It is reminding me how important it is for me to be reading scripture and continually growing in my relationship with Christ if I have any hope of helping my children see Him.

In other news, Abigail will be two years old this Saturday and we are having a very small family get together for the occasion. If the snow holds off we are thinking about barbecuing for the first time since the fall. The weather has been so mild, we thought, why not! Also, Ben’s birthday is coming up the first week in March. I confess, I really enjoy birthdays celebrated during Lent. It somehow gets me through those final weeks of winter blahs. I am feeling more myself now, but to be honest..these last few weeks found me really tired and really down on myself and my parenting. Having toddlers is a joy in so many ways but man, the emotional rollercoaster of it all is sometimes enough to almost take my breath away. We seem to be coming to the other side of it for now, thankfully.

Finally, I am working on some new hats for the girls and after ripping them out twice I finally figured out how to make the right stitch! Yay! I can’t wait to show them once they are finished.

I’ve now got a Lent and Easter board on Pinterest if you’re interested. I find Pinterest so useful for gathering ideas that I can easily go back to and find.

Sorry for the lack of depth here today. It has been a long day and I am knackered.  I hope to be back here soon with something a little more lent related.

Well…Happy Lent! ( Is that a thing? Can I even say that?)

 

This Week

This week I returned from a three night stay at my sisters house in Moncton. I fell in love with my new little niece Rose who is just a tiny piece of heaven. I also had tons of fun hanging out with sweet Jude.

I listened to anything and everything sung by The Civil Wars because they are just. that. good. The really funny thing about this group is that the leading lady, Joy Williams was a Christian singer until just a few years ago and I saw her perform in Halifax.

The girls and I were spoiled by my lovely husband on Valentine’s Day. Gorgeous flowers, lobster and wine. He does work at the market after all.

I made several batches of Cranberry muffins to make my way through the 4lb bag we bought at the market at least a month ago now.

We put Abigail in a toddler bed. I should have known she would attempt to get out of her crib much sooner than her big sister. First it was the playpen and then the crib. We’re still getting used to the switch and I imagine it will take a few weeks to settle into a new routine. It has now really hit me that we no longer have a baby in the house. Abigail will be two years old next week. I plan on crying the whole day.

I am thinking about preparations for Lent and what we will do as a family. I’m thinking about special meals, feast days, almsgiving.. things the girls will understand and get into.

I finished knitting myself a hat made of alpaca. It fit Lucy. I will take it as an excuse to knit another hat with alpaca. It seriously is a dream to hold in your hands for long periods of time…deliciously soft.

Ben will only have Monday off this week so I am mustering up all my mama strength to power through the rest of this week and trusting that God will give me grace as I call on Him.

Having a great week…and yourself?

January 30th

In two short days it will be February 1st. February means going to visit my lovely sister and her family for a few days to help. It means Abigail is almost 2 years old. It means St. Valentine’s day and the beginning of Lent are just around the corner. Finally, for me, it means that we are slowly but surely putting dark days and cold nights behind us. I really shouldn’t complain. We have had the mildest winter I can ever remember having here, but, I confess.. I still struggle to find joy in the cold, dark days. The days when I really should take the kids outside to play but can’t find the energy or desire to do so.

We have spent a lot of time indoors lately and that has made me notice so many little projects needing doing. I gave my husband a little ‘honey-do’ list this morning and he is off to the shops to get a few odds and sods to get the jobs done. Bless his heart. I think our oven has been without a handle since May(!) I am also contemplating painting the half wall in our dining room with chalkboard paint to create a bit of fun for the girls.

Ben’s work has been an adjustment to be sure, but we are seeing the benefits of that work. Not only his work, but his environment. The food we eat as a family is changing in the way I always hoped it would, but that is a story for another day.

In the meantime, I am knitting, drinking a good many hot drinks and dreaming about holding sweet Rose and drinking in that sweet smell of a new baby.

What are you doing to keep the winter blues at bay? What are you looking towards in the weeks to come to keep you smiling?

Yarn Along

My sister had her baby girl! Little Rose Marie was born on Tuesday afternoon after a very long and difficult labour for my sister that ended in another c-section. Since I’ve finished one of my own socks but lost enthusiasm to start the second, I decided to knit up another pair of baby socks for Miss Rose. I’m using Debbie Bliss cashmerino DK and it is amazingly soft. I find knitting baby socks so rewarding because they knit up so quickly! 

Last night I started reading In Defense of Food by Michael Pollan and so far so good. I was already very on board with his way of thinking so it makes for good, positive reading.

In other fun knitting news, I invited a bunch of ladies to come together for a night of coffee and knitting/crochet and there are about 8 of us planning to be there! I’m so excited to see what everyone else is knitting.

Head over and see what everyone else is knitting at Ginny’s.